Storage and Curtains

Last weekend I made curtains for the van. I've been meaning to take pictures of them all week and I wasn't going to update until I got a picture or two, but for some reason I just can't remember to do it. So far I've been liking them though. I made two big curtains for behind the front seats too but I don't have a way to hang them up yet and I think I might have miscalculated how wide I needed to make them to account for bulging out around the back of the seats and whatnot. That remains to be seen for sure.

The place I've been storing all my crap for 2 years has suddenly raised my rent by $5 without any notice. I kind of feel silly being so riled up about $5 but that adds up, and it's kind of the principle of the entire deal. I've been meaning to go through my storage for the last year that I've been hanging around the area but it's seriously a mess. 10x20 of space, the back is piled to the ceiling and the front is a thrown in mess. Pretty much when it came time to move out of my house I threw everything, I mean EVERYTHING, into boxes and put it in storage. Completely worthless or not.  I didn't have the time to sort things.

I just don't want to go through it all. I could take a week off from work and devote the entire week to going through it and I still wouldn't be done. That, and I have an unhealthy attachment to THINGS. Forcing myself to look at what's in there would be emotionally taxing. Suddenly I would care greatly about things I forgot I even had. Also, I know it's all just STUFF and that I can buy similar items again but everything costs money. If I end up getting another house or even an apartment that's all stuff I would need to buy again. Ugh.

Living in the van seems far off. Progress has stalled, and I'm just stuck between a lot of things. I just don't know what to do. Things are stagnant. I'm paying too much in gas just to get to work every day ($100/week) and I don't make that much to begin with. My life needs a radical shake up, but so far I'm afraid to do it myself. I want to love my life again, like I used to long ago.